Menuju Mati

Andai aku punya nyawa sepanjang umur dunia,
Andai aku punya emas menyilau mata,
Tiada kan berharga dalam butanya jiwa.

Aku rela gila dalam mencintaiMu,
Aku rela mati demi bertemuMu,
Jiwa terseksa saat tersedar betapa butanya ia,
Hati melepuh saat tersedar betapa dahaganya ia,

Dalam mencari kisah cinta yang dikhabar mereka-mereka,
Aku yang masih teraba-raba di dalam kelam,
Terlindung dek bayang - bayang kedaifan aku,
Meratap merayukan kasihMu,

Dimana nak ku mula langkah ini?
Agar tidak sumbang aku berlari,
Atau lalu tersasar destinasi,
Dahaga ini dah berkali-kali aku perhalusi,
Menjadi bait cinta fakir tanpa melodi,
Kerap sudah aku tersadung,
Dalam gelojoh menuju cahaya tidak kujumpa,

Duhai Cinta yang kudamba, mendekatlah kepadaku,
Duhai Cahaya yang menyala,
Suluhlah jalanku,
Biar setiap nafasku, bisa menjadi saksi cinta yang Satu.

Novel Pulak????!!!!

“ Ayesha, the doctor is ready for you.”

I picked up my bags, gather all my books and headed towards the doctor’s office. It was a cloudy afternoon. In my mind, I’m running through my to-do list of the day. Everything seems okay. I knocked three times before proceeding into the room. As usual I went ahead and sit on the comfy chaise provided for the ‘clients’ as they like to call us. Patients are what we really are; people who walk through these doors every now and then. As my feet dances to their own rhythm causing my body to seem jotted and eager the doctor greets me, warmly. “How are things going, dear?”  The doctor would have heard me laughed and cried at the same time had my brain owns a voice. Instead, I just smiled to the doctor. “Things are okay. Can we proceed with the usual dose? And I would love to have a leave slip for today if I may.” “Are you sure there’s nothing you want to share with me today? No shaky hands, cold feet? Nothing? ” “ None that I can’t manage.”

I went back to my empty apartment as soon as I got my monthly dose of drugs; drugs that keep me going; drugs that makes me appear ‘normal’ on the outside. I opened up the fridge door, skimmed through vegetables that I have in there, rummaging through menus in my head before decided to just eat out. Then I headed to the living room and proceed to turn on the calmest music I have on my stereo before laying down on my couch and get a little nap before Zuhur time comes.

New Me????!!!!

Holla peeps!! Gosh its like forever!!! Looking back, i thot i'd changed much..but guess wut? Im wrong. Anyway, ive graduated..YEAY!! The plan is to further my studies asap but looking at my financial condition right now..i dont think thats gonna happen. Anyway, we r going to repurpose this blog..soon!! So..stick around. :) Assalamualaikum.

Pst:- Nah belanja gambar sikit.. 😘